Fake It or Make It.

I hate myself sometimes. I really do. I despise myself, I think I'm needy and selfish and stupid and I ruin lives. I ruin everything, really.

I try not to think this way, I really do. But it's hard.

I want to destroy everything with my hands before I can do it with just being me.

I hate the possibility of pity. I hate the possibility of obligation.

Do I stay honest and possibly put the person on the other end in an awkward position of answering, or do I lie. Keep it all inside.

I feel like I'll destroy it all either way.