Can't Do This Anymore

I don't know if I can do this anymore.

I know I should suck it up. Put on a stone face. Refuse to give in. Be strong.

But I'm breaking. I'm breaking all around. I can't cry because if I cry I am scared I'll never stop. But I can't hold myself together for much longer.

I have nowhere to go. No plan. No way to do anything. I'm more trapped than I ever realized.

Suck it up. Be stronger than I really am.

I don't know what to do, and I'm losing hope. I just don't know.