waiting for that person

I'm waiting for someone to ask what's wrong, listen, and say "Oh okay, I'll be here if you want to talk"

And not question that 12 years is being thrown away.

Yes. I know. It's 12 years. I know more than most people what's being thrown away. Don't tell me I shouldn't, can't, won't. Don't tell me you wouldn't.

I KNOW. I KNOW OKAY? I KNOW WHAT WAS THROWN AWAY.

And if I'm okay with it? Am I a bad person? No. No I'm not.

Still waiting for that person to come by.